my teddy bear

it's quite late at night.. and i'm still in front of my silvero :)

there is lot's of stuff in my room, of course related to the booklet things..

suddenly i open one of my notebook last year, and see all of the written pen.. 

did you remember the day you stay in my dorm with mba pempi?

when we wanna go to magelang?

when we didn't sleep at all?? 

when we try to figure out those strategy and idea?

it feels like this dancing written pen is a memory :))

i'm alone and suddenly thinking of you.. yes, i do.

thinking of how we can meet and have a deep conversation in hegrid,

thinking of how i see you as something meaningful for me, 

thinking of how we dream, 

thinking of a long message i send you, 

when you forget to bring your phone,

and right after you read it, you suddenly came to me :) 

thinking of how i lay my heavy head and heart on you.. 

until i'm so worried at you :') but i do can't do anything.

.

the situation is change, people change, and as you write down on your last letter to me.. maybe we do change :)

but we predicted this right?? we're to smart for it :) hahaha.. 

you have your own idealistic, and i do too..

 we have our type of thinking, and a heart beat of it :) 

we know that we're hard each other, so someday this will happend :))

if you ever say i'm to much care, yes i'm.. and your one of the person i'm to much care of :)

i do wanna say sorry for anything that happened :) 

but maybe someday i will suggest 1 or 2 days with you, share anythings that i maybe know, and asking lots of question each other :) but maybe someday..

i do didn't feel the way we use to be now :) but maybe there is lots of reason behind..

i do let my tears drop tonight, remind all the things between us..

 but i promise just for a second :)

nothing happened, i was just kinda miss you :)) my sincere big bear hug :'D

i do feel that i'm in love with you, yes. with all of your things..

and i do worried about you, a lot, or maybe to much,, i just don't know :)

i know your the one who will accept to hear all of my feeling thought, and maybe i hope i can trust :)

this one is just a personal things.. didn't mean to bother you in any way :))

and you know what.. 

did you remember when you write down comm is yours on my booklet? hahaha, 

right before a view minute you came in front for selection day 2. 

yes it's yours :) and i may be proud to see this things written in my booklet :) when i know now in the fact, you did it :))

just wanna say thank you for anything, everything..

i'm sorry for loving you, for worried at you, or maybe to much care, and all of those rumit thinking :)) 

take care in padang :)) take care of your health there. 

didn't mean to bother at all :) thanks a bunch