Block up

i do wake up this morning for another reason. another activity, while another knowledge of life.
oh yes, the first time i open my eyes, i didn't feel any eyes open.
but i feel some heart beat, it means i didn't die.

have you ever feel some things are blocking up? not in a street or in front of your eyes.
i feel it on my chest. it was like deep inside it.
"oh god, how long will you let me feel this? i'm getting sick of it!"
it suddenly comes up in my mind, that actually "i know the reason.."
but how long will i get sick of it?

i do believe in god,
i do believe a miracle of god,
i do believe the hand of god,
i do believe that god wouldn't give you any test of your life when you can't finished it.
but i do believe when it didn't feel block up.